When you are a single mom with one income and no child support coming in holidays and birthdays are anything but cheerful for you. My children understand that we don’t have a lot of extra cash laying around. While we have the basics, we still live paycheck to paycheck. Every years I think we will be okay and I can finally have a Christmas were I am not stressing out and every year something happens and that dream of a stress free Holiday disappears. I know my kids will be happy with whatever they receive but I still feel guilty for not getting them what they really want or what my family wants.
Today I found out not only am I not getting the end of year bonus I was hoping for (couple hundred dollars) I am also not getting a raise for next year. Apparently I did not exceed expectations enough to qualify for both or any. Personally, I think it is utter bull crap because I do every job that was given to me and I even had several letters of excellence sent to my supervisor. I don’t know what I did to deserve the rating I did receive which was “yay thanks for being average”. So now I know next year is going to be the same as this year. Which is just utterly depressing.
Hoping my Christmas Jeer turns to Cheer some time soon.